Wow, thanks, lady.
Apparently they can take only so much of my tardiness (including five minutes' worth), and two mistakes in a month is too high to tolerate now.
Granted, she and I had a meeting Monday wherein she asked me what I like to do. I answered generally first, then named things about my current position that I enjoy. Perhaps I should have lied more.
True, the things that feed my soul are nowhere to be found in my job. True, she said it was obvious that I'm not happy here, and that chances are "we're" going to keep having problems if I don't enjoy my work. True, I've been wanting a different job for, oh, more than a year. I suppose now the fire under me is lit.
Positives:
- my boss will "work with" me so that I can go to job interviews with little interruption in my work day, and make everything smooth with my teammates so they don't have to know what's going on. (I think that last part is true. I should probably check with her.)
- I finally have to do this.
Sigh. It feels pretty ridiculous that I have gotten to be 29 years old before giving in to the fact that I just cannot effectively do a job long-term if I don't believe in what I'm doing. Better late than never. So here I go.
"There are many talented people who haven't fulfilled their dreams because they over thought it, or they were too cautious, and were unwilling to make the leap of faith."
-James Cameron
"All growth is a leap in the dark, a spontaneous unpremeditated act without benefit of experience."
-Henry Miller
